Dreams and Boundaries
Wednesday, February 16th, 2011When Reporters Become Targets
CBS News / AP
It’s said that WANTS and NEEDS are polar opposites, and there’s much wisdom in this truism. But being a dreamer, and a fighter against just “giving in” to the long-term demands of living with diabetes, many of the things I want to do definitely collide with my everyday reality. That reality includes checking blood sugars 6-10 times every day-especially when exercising and traveling in foreign beats. Changing my pump infusion site every 4 days. Being sure to either carry snacks with me or have easy access to food in case I should need it. Making sure there are enough diabetic supplies on hand (insulin pump supplies, batteries, blood sugar checking strips, insulin . . . ) that there’s no danger of running low–or worse, completely out. Trying to reduce incidents of long-term stress which drives blood sugars sky high.
Some of my wants and dreams that collide with diabetes? Flying a single engine plane solo. Being a photojournalist in the most remote of the world’s locations. Being a field-based cultural anthropologist, working with remote village people and cultures. Trekking through the forests for months on end to document the lives of chimps and gorillas.
It’s so hard to temper one’s dreams, and to accept boundaries, making the most of what you have! I want to be there as part of the caring humanity documenting crisis and triumph. The aftermath of the Indonesian tsunami; Hurricane Katrina; Egypt: all of the human drama compels me to want to be in places to document firsthand the emotions and changes of people facing challenges such as these.
I haven’t necessarily given in to all the boundaries imposed by diabetes. Instead, I’ve tried to take my lust for photojournalism and work it into opportunities to capture the passion of cultural festivals, celebrations, and life events around the world and in everyday life. Volunteering helps. Doing these things has worked (more or less) for me, but I still have dreams of moving beyond walls and boundaries. And, just as I hope reporter Lara Logan never gives up on living her dream, I vow to never give up on mine.
B well, b happy. And make the most of what u have!

