Posts Tagged ‘traveling’

Dreams and Boundaries

Wednesday, February 16th, 2011

When Reporters Become Targets

CBS News / AP

   Photography and reporting the thread of life beats in different places are among my greatest passions. So the recent incident of the Egyptian attack on CBS reporter Lara Logan, covering the frenzied unveiling of Egyptians’ push toward a more open society thrust me into the turmoil I want to believe I could face, and living with Type 1 diabetes, often do: that of figuring out the boundaries defined by diabetes. What do I want to do with my interests and my life? What can I do–as defined by laws governing jobs and hobbies people with diabetes sometimes are prohibited to undertake? And just as important, what are the actual limits (I truly HATE going there!) that my own years with diabetes impose on my choices and actions? Such hard questions.

   It’s said that WANTS and NEEDS are polar opposites, and there’s much wisdom in this truism. But being a dreamer, and a fighter against just “giving in” to the long-term demands of living with diabetes, many of the things I want to do definitely collide with my everyday reality. That reality includes checking blood sugars 6-10 times every day-especially when exercising and traveling in foreign beats. Changing my pump infusion site every 4 days. Being sure to either carry snacks with me or have easy access to food in case I should need it. Making sure there are enough diabetic supplies on hand (insulin pump supplies, batteries, blood sugar checking strips, insulin . . . ) that there’s no danger of running low–or worse, completely out. Trying to reduce incidents of long-term stress which drives blood sugars sky high.

   Some of my wants and dreams that collide with diabetes? Flying a single engine plane solo. Being a photojournalist in the most remote of the world’s locations. Being a field-based cultural anthropologist, working with remote village people and cultures. Trekking through the forests for months on end to document the lives of chimps and gorillas.

   It’s so hard to temper one’s dreams, and to accept boundaries, making the most of what you have! I want to be there as part of the caring humanity documenting crisis and triumph. The aftermath of the Indonesian tsunami; Hurricane Katrina; Egypt: all of the human drama compels me to want to be in places to document firsthand the emotions and changes of people facing challenges such as these.

   I haven’t necessarily given in to all the boundaries imposed by diabetes. Instead, I’ve tried to take my lust for photojournalism and work it into opportunities to capture the passion of cultural festivals, celebrations, and life events around the world and in everyday life. Volunteering helps. Doing these things has worked (more or less) for me, but I still have dreams of moving beyond walls and boundaries. And, just as I hope reporter Lara Logan never gives up on living her dream, I vow to never give up on mine.

B well, b happy.  And make the most of what u have!

Until next time, kath :)

Zest

Saturday, December 11th, 2010

So, here I am, still working 8 weeks later to adjust to fitting back into my routine life after a whirlwind 3+ weeks traveling in Japan and then a crazy but fun-filled four days of photographing red rock formations in Moab, Utah!

The small amount of Japanese language I had begun to understand and use has mostly faded from my brain cells, and I find I’m missing the excitement of trying to function between two languages, two geographic places, two cultures! But I still find myself processing what went well for me as a traveler with diabetes; someone who had the luxury (guided by my Tokyoite friend Chikako who traveled with me) of being so immersed in the Japanese culture, and what didn’t go so well in terms of living with my diabetes.

The basic staples of the Japanese diet: rice and noodles (udon; ramen; soba), served in huge amounts, were definitely an obstacle to good control. I am embarrassed to admit my recent HA1C was 8.5; gulp! one of my highest ever. Yet I found I needed to eat these carbs in Japan, since I had to be sure my blood sugar level didn’t fall too low while I walked miles every single day! That’s a common dilemma for many of my friends who have diabetes and travel anywhere. What I learned to do was add good protein, when available, to my meals, in the forms of fish (all types cooked and yes, even raw), egg, and chicken. The amount of protein served in meals was very small compared to what we eat in the U.S., so I supplemented my diet with protein bars and spoonfuls of peanut butter (which I brought in a plastic jar with me) when needed. This helped me survive pretty well!

The “new” carb that seems to be helping to skyrocket the number of Japanese being diagnosed with diabetes is, of all things, bread. White bread. Lots of it, everywhere, in patisserie specialty shops. And lots of sweets in the form of cakes, cookies, pastries. The Japanese definitely have a sweet tooth, and I was saddened to hear (and see) that many are paying for it . . . becoming overweight and diabetic. This was almost unheard of a generation ago, so it’s something to think about.

With the exception of battling high blood sugar levels after carb-laden lunches of noodles, ramen or udon soups, or rice dishes, I’m confident I managed my blood sugars and tweaking my insulin in such a distant land quite well!  I’m working on bringing that high average HA1C level down. But traveling definitely makes me quite grateful for home glucose testing (which most of us probably take for granted these days) and my insulin pump (for which I often give thanks for its ability to enable me to sleep later, switch time zones, cover extra carbs with boluses of insulin, and even suspend insulin, as  needed)!

Thanksgiving may be over on this year’s calendar. But in living my own life, there’s reason to celebrate and give thanks every day in terms of my gratefulness and sheer pleasure at the possibility of being immersed in the zest and best of life.

B well, b happy. Until next time (my procrastinating days are over; I’ll be writing again soon!), Kath

rock ‘n rolling in CA

Friday, June 25th, 2010

Had a  whirlwind week in sunny CA; the first 3 days in Los Angeles with all of our small immediate family members and a few extended family members (great to see Sue, Ron & Dar!) who flew in to celebrate my son’s graduation with his MBA. NICE! A different restaurant every night, plus visits to fantastical exhibits at the Ghetty (itself an architectural design treasure) and National Geographic’s Water exhibit–thought-provoking and beautiful images of the necessity and scarcity of water at the heart of conflict in human survival–at the Annenberg Center for Photography. 

Then the next 3 days were spent in San Diego, where I got to experience my first real earthquake. Ate dinner with friends in Del Mar, enjoyed a half-glass of wine on the patio, and about 9:30 p.m. PT, felt a rolling sensation. “Hmmm,” I wondered, “Did I perhaps have too much wine? I’m feeling VERY mellow!” Looking around to double-check my senses, I saw other diners doing the same. Then their heads started nodding recognition and acknowledgement; yep, an earthquake! It was a 5.7, centered in the Mojave Desert only 80 miles from where I sat. Everything was ok; no damage, no one hurt. Though just a bit psychologically jarring, as my brain struggled to appreciate being in the “here and now” instead of the OMG dimension of “What IF . . . ???” One big question I later asked myself was: “What if my blood sugar was low and there was no food to be had? What if I (and my family/friends) were trapped in rubble or earthquake debris?” Perhaps needless to say, sleep was elusive that night, resulting in higher blood sugars the next morning!

Now comes the hard work to try getting back into my real-life groove. Need to focus on the dogs by resuming agility training, creating some new pieces of pottery, working in my garden, reconnecting with friends, and exercising so my head, heart, and body feel better and I can start to feel like my old (mostly functioning) self. Reconciling one’s life “post-vacation” is harder than I’d like to admit . . .